getting back on track.

so there has been no updating since the new year, my apologies. life has been a bit crazy. so here is an update:

a. i am still getting jerked around.

b. i am still giving in.

c. i am still fighting the urges to get walked all over (again) by a faceless girl.

d. i have been doing my best to stop reminiscing, it only hurts.

e. nightmares won't stop.

f. i am still smiling... and life is still good. i am appreciating this organized chaos.

i promise updates won't be so few and far between anymore.