applicant #5481800

today marks my first day of being completely hopeless in the "real world". all around me people are surviving and thriving, while i just hang back and breathe in nostalgia. i can't take the required steps forward and i don't seem to meet any of the expectations. every one seems to be happy and i just can't stop thinking about how easy it used to be, when i was a name and not a number and people saw me for who i really was.